"Come here honey..."

This week has been one of highs and lows. It's funny how something as silly as a smell or an image on tv can change my whole mood... Long story short, Addison has been sick for a few days, so I have had my hands full and I'm lacking in sleep. Then last night Addison was laying on the couch with me (watching Bubble Guppies) and they started talking about s'mores and I just about lost it. Now, there is only one other person in this world who might understand why this would upset me. You see, when I was pregnant I craved s'mores like crazy. I ate them every time I was at my parents house (with my momma). I haven't had one since I was pregnant. I never thought that I could have a negative reaction to a s'more. I hate that I had a miscarriage. I hate that stupid people are reproducing. I hate that I now hate s'mores :(

I have lots of things in my life that I don't hate! Ryan is home from work more...although he is busy with football camps this week. Addison makes me smile everyday. She is just so clever...I know I am her mother and I "have to" think so, but she really is. She has started calling me (and MiMi) "honey". Ryan calls me honey, so I guess she's been listening. All day today she's been telling me, "Come here honey..." when she wants me to come play in her room or get her something. Seriously, when she calls me "honey" I will probably do anything she wants!
At bedtime I always tell Addison how we have a big day tomorrow and that she needs to get some rest etc. Well, last night she wanted her cow (that sings "Achey Brakey Heart") to go to bed with her and threw a fit when Ryan told her no. So we laid him down in her playroom and covered him with a blanket. She told him "have a big day morrow" and started telling him all the thing we were going to do! Then we said prayers with him and she kissed him on the nose. I was so proud.

Then tonight her and I were playing with her dollhouse and the grandma doll was laying beside me on the floor. She picked it up and said "Grandma Tonie!" I asked her two more times what she said and she repeated "Grandma Tonie". My great-grandma Tonie passed away years ago, never meeting Addison. At first I got this eerie feeling about it, but apparently months ago, my grandma showed Addi a picture of my Grandma Tonie. Her memory amazes me! I know that made my Grandma Tonie smile.

"A rich child often sits in a poor mother's lap" - Proverb

(I love this quote...I am so glad I am a poor mother :)